I don't even know what people look like

What do people look like? I don't know. I was thinking about it today at the gym when I walked in and there were a bunch of big muscley guys and this tiny girl. Average has no definition for me anymore. I am confusing how girls in Italy look, how guys in Italy look, how people in St. Paul look, and how students at Knox look. I change in every place. Everyday my opinion of self changes. I am so confused.