Totally and completely failed at running today. I biked to the gym and got on the treadmill and I just couldn't do it. My whole body was sore, I was tired despite letting myself sleep in and I can't stop thinking about stupid shit like my mother and boys, both of whom make no attempt to contact me in any manner. I keep telling myself that these things happen, that I ran four miles on Tuesday and three on Sunday and Monday and my body is just fucking tired, but I still feel shitty even though it's beautiful outside. I just feel shitty today. I need some love and some drinks.