I am trying to prove something to someone, but this someone is totally abstract. I want to hold up tonight and be like "look, I had a good time. I drank some beer. I talked with some people. And it was all good." I'm caring about people the wrong way. It confuses me terribly. I get upset about inconsequential people and then convince myself people that matter a lot, really don't matter at all. But that is all irrelevant. I had a good time tonight.