You can tell that Katie and I were hanging out last night. 

I think of grad school as this ambiguous "hard thing" that I "have to do," which makes it sound like I don't want to do it, but I do, I want it so badly, but the reality of doing things is often different than actually doing them. I repeatedly tell myself that doing the hard thing is better, but I'm not always fully convinced. Can't I just stay in Minnesota with all my friends and my family and get some stupid job?