I am like this always I think. I always try and look back to find the stem of it all, but I'm not sure there is a cause here. Genetics is the perfect scapegoat for everything because no one really understands it yet. My mother's hip is degenerating because of genetics, I get nervous because of genetics.

If I were a planet gravity would pull the opposite direction. Or maybe not, maybe I would only perceive it that way.