Thursday, May 27, 2010

I feel unattractive.

Julia and I have discussed a lot this year about how fat has nothing to do with how much you weigh, but it's a feeling.

I don't always feel unattractive, but do right now, for no particular reason. Well, I guess because there are no boys around, it's not enough to keep them around, like that Beyonce song.

But I'll put on a pretty dress and actually take some time to make myself look nice tomorrow and I will like myself again.
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2 comments:

katefeetie said...

I spent way too much time today going through pictures of myself on Facebook and untagging the ones in which I think I look like a whale, all because I've gained 6 pounds this term. Yeah, it sucks, I feel you.

May 27, 2010 at 1:59 AM
Julie said...

Yep, know the feeling.

I gained like 15 lbs over a year ago or so and became a normal weight for my height. I hate clothes shopping because I'll look at some shirt and think, "wow that's fucking huge, it probably won't fit me." (fits perfectly) Or pick up small pants like "hey these are nice and look my size" (can't get over thighs/can't zip up/extreme muffin top/etc)

I guess I never had much a "weight gain" part of puberty so now it's happening when I'm 22 and thought I was past all of that. I feel like I'm an insecure teenager instead of an adult woman.

May 29, 2010 at 2:36 PM

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