If I don't go to Austria next year, I want to go somewhere where I can help. Like Haiti maybe. Or I will work for a non-profit. I just need to do something. I am sick of this passive activism. I want active activism. I can't even think about the world right now, I just can't, I think about the dumbest shit all the time because it's easier than thinking about 100,000 people dying in a coutry that was already devastingly poor and illiterate.