Julia and I were talking on Wednesday and I mentionded that I no longer felt like an attrative human being, even though I look relatively the same as I used to when I was an attrative being. The difference is that I am not attracted to anyone. She said, "That's because we want to be objectified." I agree, sort of. I want some people to see me as a sexual being and not others. I want to be attractive only sometimes. And thus when I am attracted to very few people, I don't feel attractive at all, even though I look the same.

The people upstairs are playing incredibly loud music. They must have great speakers. But at some point soon I would like them to turn it down.