Monday is the quiet time after all the exciting times and I am trying to enjoy it. I'm feeling a little bit like the party is over and everyone has left and all I have to do is clean and think about everything that has happened. I am forgetting things quickly. I lose people, not in the sense that they leave, but in the sense that I stop thinking about them. I think I am only capable of thinking of one boy at a time and when I lose one I somewhat immediately start thinking about another. Of course, as usual, everyone I am thinking of right now is entirely ridiculous. I am tired and hungry. I want to have more fun. I want every week to be like last week.