I no longer know how to text or make plans. I want to make plans several days ahead of time and my texts to be answered immediately because I like my new phone so much and seeing all these people I haven't seen in so long. I am tired. Work is tiring. It is nice to be legitimately tired. There are things that are returning, positive and negative and I spent a long time in the shower (my thinking place) thinking about how I really don't trust people and then hating myself for thinking stupid things like I don't trust people. I need to be on Maury, some dumb tv show where people aren't afraid to admit that they have issues like trust.